_Happy birthday_*

*My Independence day experience*

Wow, it's finally here. I woke up 3:25a.m to packaged the gift I'd prepared for my dearest beloved. Trust me, it wasn't easy, being alone with my thoughts and hand motioning with swift movement. My back aches too as I stretched it in every ten minutes. I was alone with my thoughts and trust me, it's not safe for my sanity.

My thoughts decided to dance merry-go-round throughout my life and I realized how terrible my current emotion was. It felt like I was in a conspiracy movie and everyone is trying to play smart moves on me including my dear beloved. I'm the actor that have no one to trust because at the end of the day I have only myself. Coupled with how far I am to being Independent.

I tried composing poem of how loving she was but my heart failed me. Alas! It was empty.

Daylight came faster than I thought and I went to the kitchen to prepare the finest meal that I could lay my hands on. Heaven knows I legit hate cooking, but cooking is easier when you have dearest to serve. So my hand moved expertly, dicing and slicing all it could lay hands on. I bet it's because deep down it's therapeutic for me.

Anyways the day came and as brighter than ever, we wished her a happy birthday and showered her with gifts. On her face, one could testify and give description of how happiness looks.

It was time to go to shop and I wondered why my neighbor son did not go to school today. He was quick to remind me of today being Independence and I could only respond with "Oh!"

If my heart could be empty in wishing a dearest mum a happy birthday, I hope you understand how void my heart was to remember Independence of my Beloved country. 

I have failed my country in many ways, but I promise I won't remain a failure to my lovely country, Nigeria!

©Tenaj Art*- matters of the heART 🌹💐